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    Monday, June 12th, 2006
    1:00 am
    Damn it's good to be back!! sorry girls, but I started a new job back in Feb. at the post office and they've been working me like a fuckin' dog!! 65-70hrs a week!! so i'm either working or sleeping! although the transition from the banking job to there was 'rough' with my eating.... ultimately I've managed to lose a total of 45lbs!!! and JUST STARTED FASTING AGAIN!! losing a whopping 10 pounds in 3 days!! I bought jeans that WERE skin-tight when i started and they are soooo falling off me...even my co-workers are noticing that i'm losing...LOVE THE COMMENTS...MAKES ME DO MORE!!! everyone's like, 'girl! buy a belt!!' how GREAT DOES THAT FEEL??? lol :) I do SOOOOO MUCH PHYSICAL work that i know that's why i've lost sooo much....although, like i said, if i was able to fast in the transition, i'd prolly be at my goal weight by now...but my binging set in, as i was nervous about everything and wasn't able to purge with my mom living with me now....so....the fasting is working WAAAAYYYY better, like it always does....I have a new man, coming over on the June 20th, and i wanna lose another 15 lbs by then!! I plan on doing a fast til then to get there....and then there's no stopping me!! I love all the excersize i get at work....pushing and pulling 900lbs of mail and walking soooo much around the entire shop has been exhilirating for me!! makes me miss my daily walks that i used to do!! so i get it in at work!! YAY!! and WAY TO GO SHERI (animatedana) FOR YOUR WALKING!! THAT'S HOW I LOST ALL MY WEIGHT IN THE FIRST PLACE!! I was up to 5miles a day...walking at 3.5mph...and it was awesome!! that didn't include changing my eating habits!! that's when i was a severe bulemic...but still, the walks make you FEEL AMAZING!! and as soon as my man gets here, i wanna get up early for some...ehem....great morning sex as well as walking BEFORE i go to work!! ;) HOW HOT WILL I BE THEN???? lol :) can't wait...i've been single for 13yrs...and been waiting for this FOREVER!! and i finally feel 'safe' enough to be thin again, ya know??? I'VE ALWAYS HAD A HARD TIME BEING THIN WHEN I WAS SINGLE...FOR SOME REASON IT'S EASIER TO LOSE WHEN I HAVE SOMEONE AS IT'S EASIER TO HANDLE THE ATTENTION WHEN I'M "TAKEN"...ya know"??? and the greatest thing about him?? he last saw me and 'wanted' me when i was at my heaviest!! SO SEEING HIM WILL BE LIKE A WHOLE NEW ME!!! I'VE LOST LIKE 50lbs since he saw me last!!! yaaay!!! sorry, i'm just happy as fuck right now!! AND I FEEL STRONGER THAN EVER!!!! EVER BEFORE!!! C'mon girls!! we can do this!! I'M BACK AND NOT GOING AWAY FOR A LOOOONG-ASS TIME!! don't care if i have to post at 6am!! i'm gonna keep you all posted and TRY MY DAMNEDEST TO REPLY AND SUPPORT ALL OF YOU BEAUTIFUL WOMEN HERE!! I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH I'VE MISSED YOU ALL!!:( BUT NO MORE!!! I'LL TRY TO GET ON AT LEAST EVERY OTHER DAY, K??? LOVE YOU ALL AND MISS YOU MUCHLY...JENN ps...hopefully i'll have time to read and comment to all your posts!! ok?? XOXOXOXOXOX how kick ass is it that Janet Jackson lost 60lbs in 3 months!! it's inspiring for those of us with binging tendencies!! ;)

    Current Mood: excited
    Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
    10:47 pm
    WOW!!!! ....I MISS THIS FEELING!! :)
    So I haven't posted since my 'high' becuz I think subconscously(sp?), I knew that I was gonna crash--to another fuckin' 'low'...c'mon! who was I trying to kid?? MYSELF!! and all you ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL GIRLS/WOMEN HERE!! AND I AM SOOOOO SORRY! :(
    I'm the HUGEST, BIGGEST, MOST DISGUSTING GIRL HERE!!!!fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!!! I'm sooo sorry everyone----just went thru another bump.
    I seem to binge on carbs after a fast and I LET MY WEAKNESS TAKE OVER!!--gained all i lost in my fast--uh duh!!-----------------------
    my stomach turns now as I write this as it reminds me of my gramma and aunt who was/are morbidly obese....that's how i FEEL when i binge...thus why the HATE/FEEL GUILTY of it all......

    anyways....'lol'--- i'm such a dork! lol sorry girls, had 2 bicardi and diets and feeling it good! lol ;)
    and to think THIS is a 'happy/great' post!! lol :) I"m such a geek.

    well girls!! THAT WAS THE DAY BEFORE YESTERDAY!! THE LAST DAYS OF LAST FUCKIN' YEAR!! :)
    *does happy dance*
    2005 was NOT nice to me....this year HAS to be better!! I WILL MAKE IT A BETTER YEAR!!!
    SOO.....
    I JUST GOT BACK FROM THE YMCA AFTER WORKING 11 HRS NO BREAK AND I SWAM FOR AN AMAZING HOUR AND 15 MIN!!!
    IT WAS THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD, YET THE WORST AT THE SAME TIME--the out of shape slap in the face was soooooo exhilarating!!! yet hard-hitting.... :( ??? Sucked kinda
    well I mean, I SOOOOO MISS working out to a level of 'high' like that...to think that I USED TO BE ABLE TO SWIM A MILE...I THINK LIKE 52 LENGTHS/?? == I'll have to look that up===and shit....3 lengths had me puffing!! I AM SOOO QUITTING SMOKING TOO!!
    I used to get compliments from strangers on my endurance on the stair machine!! 55min! going strong!! the compliments period!! I MISS THE HIGH OF WORKING OFF EVERYTHING I PUT IN MY MOUTH!! that's when I was happiest...strongest...most confident.....HAPPY!! THIN AND FIT!!
    so here we go:
    coffee for bf
    2 cups of speghetti for lunch
    one slice garlic bread
    water water diet a&w
    water water water
    went to the Y and swam for a little over an hour!! :) tummy is sooo growling...but i'm having a cocktail instead!! ;) fillin up with diet soda....caff. free. :)
    WOOOOOOOHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
    I'M COMIN' BACK!! YAY!! *HUGE HAPPY DANCE*

    LETS JUST SEE HOW FAR WE CAN GO!!!????
    I'VE NEVER TESTED THAT LINE BEFORE, BUT I'M SOOOO READY!!

    *HUGS*
    --Jenn

    Current Mood: AND LOVING IT!! PROUD
    Current Music: Why Go by Pearl Jam :)
    Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
    8:35 pm
    Bring on Day 3!!!
    well, I'm home now and STILL GOING STRONG!! I haven't even had to take any ephies today! :) YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!
    *doing a happy dance*
    was up too late last nite chatting and I'm bushed....so no workout tonite.
    but I'm doing fine otherwise....everytime I START to feel my stomach whine, I slam some more water!! :) working beautifully.
    I'm soooo proud that I'm resisting the amazing looking veggie burger mom made with sauteed onions, mushrooms, and SWISS cheese!! :) I LOVE SWISS CHEESE!!!!!
    woops....where's my water!! lol ;)

    I'm FEELING SOOOOO STRONG RIGHT NOW, NOT EVEN SWISS CAN'T F*CK ME UP!!
    WOOOHOOOO!!!

    Current Mood: and high off success!
    Wednesday, December 21st, 2005
    9:25 am
    THIS IS IT!! THE FIRST DAY OF THE REST OF MY LIFE!! [Dec. 20th, 2005|10:36 pm]

    polly_ana

    [ mood | indescribable ]

    So I'm soooooo pissed off at myself for the last 2 days I wanna die!! between the PMS and then starting...fuckin' chocolate at work! FUCKERS!! I don't even feel 'worthy' to be here!! :(
    SO THIS IS IT!! RIGHT NOW!! FOR AS LONG AS I CAN GO, I'M FASTING!! MINIMAL TO NO CAL LIQUIDS ONLY!!!!
    I have my ephies now and a new friend and YOU GUYS HERE!!! I'M SOOOOO DONE WITH THIS YO YO BULLSHIT!!!!!! SOOOOO DONE ---IT'S OVER!!!
    watch me shed my skin..........just watch me.
    I WILL SHRINK TO NOTHING BUT SKIN AND BONES! I WILL!!

    I'm gonna shove my fat clothes right in my sister's ugly fuckin' face!! she'll be soooo jealous and I'll will have won!
    just watch me!!

    I will be updating as much thru out the days as I can.
    I want to be as inspiring to others AS ALL OF YOU ARE TO ME! :)

    I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD....I PROMISE!!
    Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
    10:43 pm
    AAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!
    There's only ONE thing i LOVE about stress....that it makes me nauseas!!! I hardly ate today. 1 cup of meatless chili and a bowl of fruit. :)
    I'm PMS'in AGAIN and thought of a way to NOT! I wanna lose ALL THIS FUCKIN' WEIGHT, SO MUCH SO THAT I LOSE MY PERIOD!! my mom's gettin on my last nerve today....she was tired and cranky and her paranoia from her PSTD was super bad today....the fuckin dust pans disappeared and she was in a frenzy when I got home, PLUS her car was at the mechanics,,,less than 24hrs and she's freakin' without her van. uuuggghhh. I miss being by myself sometimes...shit been alone for 5yrs in my apartment....weird to not have it quiet all the time, ya know?
    now I know why I have my haven in the basement....my work-out/office/get away. :)
    work is stressin me out....getting tough to smile there lately. they suck so bad, the bank, not my co-workers...they're gonna lose all of us amazing employees....can't wait for the post office to call. :)
    dead tired...goin' to bed.. I can tell I haven't been drinking enough water....skin, body, mouth, lips are dryer than shit.
    we'll see how I do tomorrow. supposed to get a shit load of snow ---first of the year, snowstorm 'Amy'. yeeeee-fuckin'-haw.

    Current Mood: exhausted
    Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
    3:20 pm
    not bad for a fattie! lol :)
    ok, so I've been eating 'good' since my infection and it's clearing nicely and will start working out again tomorrow! yay! :)

    on my every other day of NOT fasting I've been having:

    one cup of skim milk = 76cals
    vege soup = 80cals
    croutons for soup = 60cals
    fajita veggie burger with tomato = 130cals
    water water and more water = 0cals! :)
    1/2 cup of mandarine oranges = 60cals
    total = 406cals! :)

    not GREAT, but not bad!! just proud as hell of myself for NOT BINGING!! usually when I'm stressed I go right for the cupboards, stuff my face and then purge for a release...but since moving in with mom...I've only "messed" up one Sunday in the last month! :) binged but couldn't purge. :( sucked...but now I know NOT to do that again!! :)

    Current Mood: impressed
    Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
    9:00 am
    Back on track! :) yay!!
    So I've lost 15 lbs in 2weeks and then binged sunday and gained back 3. :( but that's OK, cuz I'm starting over AGAIN!! keep on keepin' on! lol :)
    Today is a fast day....water and coffee, then a workout and washing walls and ceilings...so I'll get rid of it in no time!!
    from now on, I'm posting my intake and burned cals in this journal!
    ONLY GOOD AND POSITIVE STUFF!! YAY!!

    Current Mood: rejuvenated
    Saturday, August 13th, 2005
    10:19 am
    Posting for friends!
    Sacred Heart Medical Diet
    This 7-day eating plan can be used as often as you like. If correctly followed, it will clean out your system of impurities and give you a feeling of well-being. After only 7 days of this process, you will begin to feel lighter by at least 10 pounds and possibly 17 pounds, and experience an abundance of energy.
    SOUP:
    · 1 or 2 cans of stewed tomatoes
    · 3 plus large green onions
    · 1 large can of beef broth (no fat)
    · 1 pkg. Lipton Soup mix (chicken noodle)
    · 1 bunch of celery
    · 2 cans green beans
    · 2 lbs. Carrots
    · 2 Green Peppers
    Season with salt, pepper curry, parsley, if desired, or bouillon, hot or Worcestershire sauce. Cut veggies in small to medium pieces. Cover with water. Boil fast for 10 minutes. Reduce to simmer and continue to cook until veggies are tender.
    This soup can be eaten anytime you are hungry during the week. Eat as much as you want, whenever you want. This soup will not add calories. The more you eat, the more you will lose. You may want to fill a thermos in the morning if you will be away during the day.
    DRINKS:
    · Unsweetened juices
    · Tea (also herbal)
    · Coffee
    · Cranberry juice
    · Skim milk
    · Water, water, water
    DAY ONE
    Any fruit (except bananas). Cantaloupes and watermelon are lower in calories than most other fruits. Eat only soup and fruit today.
    DAY TWO
    All vegetables. Eat until you are stuffed with fresh raw, cooked or canned veggies. Try to eat green leafy veggies and stay away from dry beans, peas or corn. Eat veggies along with the soup. At dinnertime tonight reward yourself with a big baked potato and butter. Don't eat any fruits through today.
    DAY THREE
    Eat all the soup, fruit and veggies you want. Do not have a baked potato. If you have eaten as above for three days and not cheated, you should find that you have lost 5-7 pounds.
    DAY FOUR
    Bananas and skim milk: Eat at least 3 bananas and drink as much milk as you can today, along with the soup. Bananas are high in calories and carbohydrates, as is the milk but on this particular day, your body will need the potassium and carbs. Proteins and calcium to lessen the cravings for sweets.
    DAY FIVE
    Beef and tomatoes: you may have 10 to 20 ounces of beef and a can of tomatoes, or as many as 6 tomatoes on this day. Eat the soup at least once today.
    DAY SIX
    Beef and veggies, eat to your heart's content of the beef and veggies today. You can even have 2-3 steaks if you like with green leafy veggies but no baked potato. Be sure to eat the soup at least once today.
    DAY SEVEN
    Brown rice, unsweetened fruit juice and veggies, again, be sure to stuff yourself and eat the soup. You can add cooked veggies to your rice if you wish.
    By the end of the 7th day, if you have not cheated on this diet, you should have lost 10 to 17 pounds. If you have lost more than 17 pounds, stay off the diet for two days before resuming the diet again.
    This diet is fast. The secret lies within the principle that you will burn more calories than you take in. It will flush your system of impurities and give you a feeling of well-being. This diet does not lend itself to drinking any alcoholic beverages at any time. Because of the fat build-up in your system. Go off the diet at least 14 hours before any intake of alcohol.
    Due to the variety of digestive systems in individuals, this diet will affect everyone differently. After day three, you will have more energy than when you began, if you do not cheat. After being on the diet for several days, you will find that your bowel movements have changed. Eat a cup of bran or fiber. Although you can have black coffee with this diet, you may find that you don't need caffeine after the third day.
    The basic fat burning soup can be eaten anytime you feel hungry during the seven days. Eat as much as you wish. Remember the more you eat, the more you will lose. You can eat broiled, boiled or baked chicken instead of the beef. Absolutely no skin on the chicken. If you prefer, you can substitute broiled fish for the beef on only one of the beef days. You need the high protein in the beef for the other days.
    Continue on the diet as long as you wish and feel the difference both mentally and physically.
    DO NOT - DO NOT
    No bread, alcohol, carbonated drinks (including diet drinks). Remember, absolutely no fried foods.
    DO - DO - DO - DO
    Drink plenty - at least 6 to 8 glasses - of water a day, as well as any combination of the following beverages: black coffee, unsweetened fruit drinks, cranberry juice and skim milk.
    This diet comes from the Sacred Heart Memorial Hospital that is used for overweight heart patients in order to lose weight rapidly, usually prior to surgery.
    Monday, August 8th, 2005
    1:49 pm
    FINALLY!!! :) YAY!!
    well, I'm FINALLY back on track with myself!! YAY!!
    I just have to remind myself, of this:
    I cannot control my crazy family and their issues.
    I cannot control my friends and their choices---if someone wants to cut thier wrists, I can be THERE for them, but I CANNOT SAVE THEM!
    I cannot control the shit that the universe throws at me---my financial stuff..my car troubles..ect.
    I cannot control ANYTHING BUT WHAT I PUT IN AND OUT OF THIS BODY!!
    I CAN CONTROL AND CHANGE MY BODY!!! YAY!!
    I CAN CONTROL HOW MUCH I EXCERSIZE AND MOVE THIS FAT LARD ASS!! LOL :)

    FROM TODAY ON, I WILL HAVE CONTROL OF THESE THINGS AND STARTED THIS WEEKEND!!
    WORKED OUT AND FASTED--SAT.
    WORKED OUT, THEN B/P EVERYTHING I CONSUMED.--SUN.
    TODAY: I'm fasting and working out tonight!
    YAY!!!

    A HUGE THANK-YOU TO ALL YOU GIRLS ON HERE, ESPECIALLY VICTORIA-WHO'S AN NEVER-ENDING INSPIRATION TO ME!! :)
    I'M GLAD TO BE BACK AND ON TRACK!! WOOO HOOO!!
    *HUGS*
    STAY STRONG GIRLS WE CAN AND WILL REACH OUR GOALS!!
    XOXOX--Jenn

    Current Mood: refreshed
    Thursday, June 30th, 2005
    8:49 am
    Day 3!! :) woop woop!
    well, I did excellent last night when I went home....drank water all night, and with the heat, I didn't even GET hungry!! yay!!
    lost 5 lbs from last week! :) I like how after the first 2-3days, the hunger pains go away completely for me!! :) that's why it's easier to NOT eat, as the minute I do, then the hunger starts again...and I'd rather not have that..
    WHY is it, that sometimes this seems soooo easy, and other times...it just seems immpossible??? whatever...as long as it's easy now! :)
    yesterday I had 700 cals...coffee, water, and more water....the creamer and all the coffee in the morning is where all those cals were! :)
    today?
    water, water, water, coffee, coffee, coffee... :)

    Current Mood: accomplished
    Saturday, June 25th, 2005
    10:45 am
    THANK-YOU for this "NEW START"--I borrowed from pinkjgirl. :)
    But tomorrow--what I have is tomorrow.
    Today, I will restrict to only yogurt, milk, and fat free coffee--because calcium is vital to losing weight and maintaining bone mass/and I will workout while envisioning my 110 pound body, even if I have to pretend I've already reached 110.
    Then, tomorrow I will wake up and reflect.
    Maybe today will count, maybe today will matter tomorrow.
    If I follow my plan today, then I will be a step closer to my goal body, and THEN today will count.

    I have decided that THER IS NO TURNING BACK.
    I have decided once and for all what I want my body to look like, and I will get it. There is no other option, no other justification for eating like crap, for submitting to hunger, for giving in to others' desire to pull me down. I will not surrender to this body. I will not surrender to fat, to weakness, to falling short of the body and life I have created in my mind.
    If I'm going to do this again, then I'm going to do it all out, entirely; otherwise, why waste the time? If I'm not going to do it all-out, then I shouldn't restrict at all, I should just give in completely to fat and food and binge myself into obesity. There are no longer any other options.
    This time, it's all or nothing.

    I have decided to have it all.

    Once I have conquered my body's fat, I will be free to pursue the rest of my ambitions entirely, with complete focus. This comes first.

    ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
    The new thing I've started doing is writing down my different diets on separate index cards to pull out for a week if I want to change diets. (They are weekly diets)

    "110 Diet" (This is the one I'm doing until further notice)
    Mon: 500 cal/workout
    Tue: 400 cal/workout
    Wed: 300 cal/workout --begin fast at 7pm
    Thur: Fast Day/light exercise @ home
    Fri: Fast Day/light exercise @ home --end fast at 7pm-- 200cals allowed before 8pm
    Sat: 300 cal/workout
    Sun: 400 cal/workout

    *8oz milk/day for calcium
    *green tea pills
    *discipline

    "Fasting Diet"
    Mon: 300-500cal/workout
    Tue: Fast Day
    Wed: 200-400cal/workout
    Thur: Fast Day
    Fri: 100-300cal/workout
    Sat: Fast Day
    Sun: Fast Day
    Mon: start new diet or repeat

    "Detox Diet"
    Daily:
    120oz. water
    at least 8oz. green tea
    1 grapefruit/grapefruit juice
    cucumbers in apple cider vinegar

    "Low Carb Diet"
    Bkfst: Egg whites (17cal each)
    Lunch: 1/2c. Dannon Light N Fit yogurt, 1 slice low-fat cheese
    Dinner: 1 can tuna, 1/2c. Dannon Light N Fit yogurt, 1 slice low-fat cheese


    ***There are just some of my own diet creations that I like to do & I just thought I would share them with you girls if you need ideas. Hope you're all doing well.

    Word of the Day: DISCIPLINE!!
    (should be the word of the day every day)



    heres sum 'ideal' model weights i found on a pro-ana website
    5'0" 102 lbs
    5'1" 104 lbs
    5'2" 105 lbs
    5'3" 107 lbs
    5'4" 109 lbs
    5'5" 111 lbs
    5'6" 112 lbs
    5'7" 114 lbs
    5'8" 116 lbs
    5'9" 117 lbs
    5'10" 119 lbs
    i dont think of of those goes under the bmi of 17%
    b strong xox

    Current Mood: optimistic
    Friday, June 17th, 2005
    10:23 am
    I know it's most likely just PMS and my switching meds...just started prozac...but I've NEVER EVER EVER felt more depressed that i have these last few weeks...
    I WISH I HAD THE COURAGE TO KILL MYSELF....my family would get over it...it's not like I have any kids or someone who loves me (that ISN'T a blood relative) that would miss me.....
    I just wanna go through my apartment....get rid of everything, shred everything...
    I just wanna go to sleep and NEVER WAKE UP....my dreams are always better than real life anyways....

    wish I could figure out how to 'get over' the band thing..fuck it was almost 3 months ago, and I STILL get VERY upset whenever I think about it. you'd think the band was a boyfriend for something.

    Current Mood: lonely
    Saturday, June 11th, 2005
    9:27 am
    Well, I 'lost' it last night...why is it that night time is the worst for me?? my mom called and started telling me about all the drama with my drug addict-bitch sister....she wants to move over here!! I about died! I did sooo much to get away from all the family chaos bullshit and now she wants to invade my "life"....sucks...
    so how do I handle it??? by binging and purging...WHY??? even as I was doing it, I was asking myself why I was doing it...I hate it.....it's just the FEELING of release that comes afterwards, that's what I like.....it's torture...I wish I could just 'flip' that switch to just starving/restricting....I seem to do alright for about a month, then I lose it.
    at least I know that cantalope and cottage cheese comes up pretty good....first time I lost my breath purging tho...that was scary, sort of....
    I don't know...time to start over again.....
    I gotta gain control of this shit!!

    Current Mood: crushed
    Friday, June 10th, 2005
    2:35 pm
    *deep breath*
    so the doc is changing my meds and i've been struggling with my b/p episodes...sucks....I HATE feeling like such a fat fuckin' out of control pig!!
    ARRGGHH!!!!
    so I went shopping and got stuff that I CAN'T binge on...really...fruit, cottage cheese, yogurt and special K with berries.
    so far today...I've had:
    apple--74cals
    cup of strawberries--43cals
    propel water--20cals
    mocha frapp--180cals
    ----317cals so far.....
    and I'll be having tuna tonight for dinner which is 99cals

    so my total today will be 416! :) yay, getting back on track and i"ve been walking as my car is still dead....it's been helping me with my moods.

    dumped the scrawny idiot...he got incarcerated...he's an idiot..why am I ALWAYS a loser/alcoholic magnet??? hate it.. hate that they all seem to know how much I don't like myself and they feed on it...or take advantage of it...
    anyways....time to make some more changes. :)

    Current Mood: apathetic
    Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
    8:49 am
    Monday: burger, no bun....3 diet cokes...water

    so far today, fat free vanilla capp....water... :)

    stayed with Mel last night...mmmmm, it's nice....he makes me feel amazing....and his size really helps me stay motivated! I know he's super-thin...so much so that he's self-conscience about it, like I am with my fat.....but lying next to him, makes me feel sooooo fat, that it's easier not to eat and to keep restricting!! YAY!!! :)
    gonna keep it going! :)

    Current Mood: accomplished
    Thursday, April 28th, 2005
    1:03 pm
    ahhh, well, I broke last night....dammit!
    but this is all i had:
    3 glasses of apple juice
    one can of tuna-plain
    2 apples

    I was SOOOOO full!! I felt horrible after....
    today I'm starting fresh....
    water, water, a diet coke, and more water! :)
    Wednesday, April 27th, 2005
    7:34 am
    I miss this!! :)
    wow, day 5 of my fast.....it's actually goin WAY easier than I expected!! I haven't even had any ephidrine yet!! that's crazy! is this getting easier for now?? I hope so! I barely got hungry last night...when I did, I had 2 big glasses of orange juice. felt better.
    this morning, coffee and water! :)
    I've never gone past 5 days b4, so I'm gonna see how long I can go without my ephie's and then take a couple of those the first sign of hunger pains!
    YAY!!!
    I forgot how GREAT it feels to FEEL lighter...when I eat, the pit of my stomach makes me feel SOOOOO FREAKIN' FAT, I hated it!
    anywho--hope everyone else is doing alright! :)
    stay strong and we can reach our goals!! :)
    *hugs*
    --Jenn

    Current Mood: accomplished
    Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
    11:45 am
    just wanna remember this site, for thinspiration.

    http://www.livejournal.com/community/__marykateolsen/
    10:32 am
    found Jill's page and stats....she'll be my thinspiration....she only "got" the most amazing man born...and had his baby girly!! *bitch*! lol j/k

    http://celebritybabies.typepad.com/photos/uncategorized/eddievedder.jpg

    http://jillmccormick.iwarp.com/photo2.html

    Jill was born on August 23, 1977, in Los Angeles. Her father is a successful stock-broker and CEO, and her mother is a divorce lawyer.

    At the age of 16, Jill and her family relocated to Miami when she was accepted into Elite Models Miami Division.

    After becoming a runner-up in an Elite "New Face" contest in 1996, Jill moved to Europe to persue modeling. Soon after that, she moved back to Miami left Elite for Champagne-Trott Modeling Agency because she wished to model less.

    However, in recent months, her career has picked up steam. Instead of backing away from fame, Jill has decided to try her luck at the spotlight!

    Jill now spends her free-time between Los Angeles and Seattle.
    Vital Stats
    Height: 5'10"
    Weight: 120
    Hair color: Brown
    Eye color: Green
    Size/suit: 6
    Bust: 36
    Waist: 24
    Hips: 35
    Inseam: 28
    Shoe: 9

    Current Mood: inspired!
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